when one of ours falls.. RIP LLoyd Kid Mcdevitt

1.Benji Reid, Broken Glass, Manchester; 2.?;3.Javeed Suleman, Assassinators;4. Big Spanner, Smak19 Sheffield; 5.?;6.Rick Da Click, Assassinators;7.? Smak 19; 8.?;9.Courtney Rose, Assassinators, Nottingham;10. Birdie, Wolverhampton B Boys; 11.?;12. Freestyle, Wolverhampton B Boys; 13. Paul Weston, Bboy mercenary for Leeds, Bradford & Manchester crews; 14. Hanifa, Wolverhampton B Boys; 15.Kevski/Nerd, Supreme Force ;16.Samantha Dennis, Fly Girls, Nottingham;17.?;18.Wayne, Assassinators, Nottingham;19. Keiren Russel, Supreme Force;20. Ady Acid; 21. Horace Francis, Rock City Crew/Supreme Force;22.?;23.?;24.?; 25. Danny, Rockertronz Nottingham 26.Duncan Mitchell, Supreme Force, Nottingham;27. Doctor Dee, Assassinators, Nottingham; 28.Junior,Assassinators, Nottingham;29. Billy Bizniz (Spider), Live 2 Break (and N4cers);30.King Breaker, London All Stars; 31. Dolby D, London All Stars. 

Flight.

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I have just watched this fascinating Robert Zemeckis film  staring Denzil Washington  in his latist outing he plays a Flight pilot Whip Whitaker who a excellent at his job but is a chronic alcoholic,

devoid of any sentimentally we as the audience we're asked to do the work to place ourselves  in the center of this gripping thriller. 

an not here to give the plot  away but really here to celebrate the handling of the subject matter, they could of easily gone over board and tried to pull at out hart string making him the victim of the insidious  illness, or make him a villain, but alcoholic are as varied and as complex as any self induced illness.

this film lays the landscape that Whip has to traverse, cumulating  the a scene that the who film is centered around central question can he remain sober for the most important day of this life?

how many more lie are you going to tell yourself before you admit your a alcoholic, quote: don't tell me how to lie about alcohol i been lying all my life.

anyone suffering form alcohol abuse will recognize them self this thriller about incarceration, prison, delinal, deception, one my be able to deceived many people but you can never deceived yourself and one day one has to return home to face the music.

no one can ever tell you what is like to be trapped in this decease, temptation at every corner in the working class estates. on filghts of plains, in clubs in pubs,  the constant reference to alcohol related activity. we even have holidays dedicated to the activity of drinking.. if you don't believe my try have xmas and new years with out a drink.

no one can tell you that being dry is like losing your best friend again and again every night. no one can tell you the you like god can resurrect the dead just one sip and she back. no one tell you you hate yourself till you get that warm felling.. then hate yourself in the morning..

this film really explores the internal dilemma and turmoil one goes through trying the change a ilife long habit. not only having the adjust the way you see yourself but how to reengage the world again.

ok am done but maybe i need to put the AA on Blast some time soon fuck a 12 step program but that another story...

 

How will Rammellzee be remembered?

Few artist in hip hop manage to truly transcend their genre, and in the world of early graffiti i name a few of my personal favorites Doze. Basquiate and Rammellzee, all of which seam to see the world from a slightly off kilter poisson. but my focus today lay with Rammellzee having just heard of his wife Ms. Zagari Rammellzee passing form my good friend Paz Dean post on face book. thanks bro.

What is Gothic Futurism in Rammellzee's own words,  "liberate the mystical power of letters from the strictures of modern alphabetical standardization and that they had inherited this mission from medieval monks". Simply dope Rammellzee often spoke in a cartoon characters voice which became known as Gangsta Duck rarely seen in public with is futuristic costume.

To old school heads Rammellzee was immortalize by his track Beat Bop recorded in 1983 ” a 12-inch single by Rammellzee and K-Rob  Basquiat also illustrated the record’s cover.

Rammellzee created his own rules for his own world even universe. which sadly for me i  have never seen live. my hope is that one day his work will be presented here over in the uk.

now with the resent passing of Ms. Zagari Rammellzee the question is how will his work be preserved who will looking after the estate. will his work see a larger audience. how do we help to celebrate hip hop's finest intergalactic visual pioneer.

i have hip hop dream of creating a theater show about on of my heroes but know that one cannot create a piece on the scale its deserves with out public interest. and what i mean by that statement is there needs to be a wider public  perception of who the man really is. and that why we have presented with a contrived and disappointing  bipic of biggie and soon to come Tupac movie  because they carry huge public interest and will result in a profit for the films investors. 

all artist have a rightful place, some more that others, some will just simply fade away other with develop mythical status.. will Rammellzee become another Major Taylor ( it you dont know him get to know)

Rammellzee should not be allowed to disappear in the either his work is as important as Jackson Pollock , or keith haring.. and even his good friend Basquiat. just a thought had is work been adopted by Mary Boone or appeared on public access television TV Party and his art work  sold for millions, i seroiusly dont think i would have need to wright this blog.. 

My condolances goes out to the surviving family.. 

i wish you all peace...

So you want me to vote for a new police commissioner

Hmmm so you want me to vote for a new police commissioner, thats interesting i didn't care or know too much about my last one. As of yet i don't know who i will be voting for or what choice i have. I wonder what will be the election process will there be a huge canvasing process ( who will foot the bill i guess thats you and me then) where they will travel to our homes and kiss my children tell me how how they have empathy for me and my kind telling the know the hardship of be black. will they pledged to be the change we need and want. with the austerity measures taken buy all public services the having a huge and detrimental impact on effective policing will they promise to only half charge their tasers..and just how will they tackle Knife and gun crimes anti-social behavior.. where do the believe these issue in the community stem from, and how will they serve and protect our community..
will there be some presidential debate where they will drag up each other pass histories me thinks not.

what i want to know is where they have studied their professional history. in fact just like Donald Trump i want their birth certificate and all the results of their universities, i want them CRB checked.
and a full background search. i also want to be there at the interview process. and the position reviewed every six months.. i want him to meet targets lower crime less harassment in innocent people and all round better relationship between the police and the community... not much to ask for given the fact its 100 grand out of my and yours pocket..

so far i know steven woolfe intends to work of half price, but its not made clear if thats for the first year all for all of his incumbency.

the fact of the matter i have had a good trowel through the inter net and very little has come up about the future Mancumian police commissioner. so what investigative power do i have now not much. but be sure. i will be keeping a eye on the process.

Pinocchio poster..our new joint...

She Don't like you..

am fine when it just
me and her
her and me. us two
just us two together
we're fine....

she likes it that way
and i do too i think
we sit together and eat together
every day. we smile together
cry together every day.

she loves my children and
they in turn love her right back
she has so much tolerance
and invention. in a second
she can assume the mind and
skin of a two year old..
and play as if a child..


am fine when it just
me and her
her and me. us two
just us two together
we're fine....

we go book shopping together
and clothes shopping, together
she wakes me up at dawn to tells
me the light is right for photography
she patiently awaits my arrival
so see can view the dailies..(the pictures)

but let me come home with a woman
let me even think about a woman.
dream about a woman..
shes ok with desire just don't let it
materialize into anything more.

when i have a date, she stands  silently
by my side wile we eat, arms folded
and the looking like she can smell sulfuric acid.
her every movement was under the microscope.
how she eats her mouth open or closed
chatting away without a care in the world.
her finger nails her ear lobes.
she would always find fault.
oh so carefully drawing a X on the napkin.
i look down i guess it a no them? she smiles back..
its a no she says..


she bound to snore in bed.
or be selfish or some other
inconsequential detail..
she has never really like any woman
i have bought home, her
OCD
is killing every relationship.
i am arrested in her arms.

she drinks more that i do
she wants all the drink all the time.
it helps us sleep it helps us sleep
it helps us sleep.. she says..

other girls cant drink the way i do she says
when i take the other girls out.. she says
watch her she drinking all the drink...
theres none left for us.. but honey shes
only had one glass. she says it better when she gone..


am fine when it just
me and her
her and me. us two
just us two together
we're fine....

she make me kick them out all of them
out the door a dont come back  she says
in my voice. i slump on the bed lonely
again.. she comforts me and offers me a drink..

i say Art i love your the soul to all my
creativity my muse my drive. my compass
but you need to lets me

have someone, some one to hold..
some one real with flesh and blood.
with there own life..and imperfections not
a painting  but  some one who will
turn this stone heart to a butterfly...
some one to grow old.....with.

she said take her and i will leave...
it just us two. i'll never hurt you..
am here. just look in the mirror..
am right here..



am fine when it just
me and you
you and me. us two
just us two together
we're fine....?

Home made theatre.

"This 'll give you an idea.
In short, around 25 acts perform in 7 squatted livingrooms, a bathroom, a sauna and a tree house, using 0 plugs. Musicians range from singer/songwriters to bluegrass and acoustic punk bands. This edition, #6 (we do it twice each year) we try out theatre, dance and poetry for the first time." Femke Ravensbergen

 i was totally inspired by this concept and will be looking to incorporate this attitude into how i see making work.. i have been playing with the idea. of setting up mu own theatre in my back garden.. and i must admit after see and show presented by Femke and a young musician called Alessandro Mezzogori  he uses the name Babboo Theatre.

its only a matter of time when artist (theater  makers ) artist that grew up in the theatre have to set up alternative venues and collectives that are not supported by the government, if   we trully desire autonomy we have the think long and hard about our goals as artist.. if we opt out of the system then we have to make sacrifices even more then we already do today

i have never felt better prepared to move forward into the next phase of my artist journey. if in the long run i can provide a space for artsit to experiment with very little cost to them. a holding space. where ideas can germinate and eventually be presented that would be my idea of heaven.
so over the next few months i will be working at trying to realize this dream..

i hope to develop a small rehearsal space that can double as a small theatre with a audience if about 15 people.. i have a name already but maybe i should  hold on to that for now..

what i know is what i feel.. and i feel change..

what are you prepared to give up...  what are we prepared to gain..